I am a lung and breast cancer survivor. I was diagnosed in 2006 with breast cancer and cancer of the lung. A form of non-small cell lung cancer. The treatment was a lobectomy on my left lung and a lumpectomy and radiation treatment for 3 months.

On Thanksgiving, 2008 I tripped at my daughters and fell, fractured my foot, sprained my ankle and realigned my pelvis which set off my sicatica. Eventually during the course of treatment for my back my physical therapist suggested I see someone about taking care of my ventral hernia which had been getting bigger. In the process of getting a CAT scan to check the hernia more adenocarinoma appeared in my right lung.

I am scheduled for a lapascoptomy for the herina on March 10 then 3-4 weeks later I hope qualify for a clinical trial which would be cancer medication instead of chemo. Luckily these tumors are very small and very slow growing so there is a window of time I can wait on. In the meantime I am just taking care of other medical stuff like a thyroid ultra sound, blood work, and other check ups. This is really my year for medical stufff and I might as well get it all done.

It sometimes seems like a long, journey with no end in sight but I really have to believe that all will be will in God's time not mine.

I am reminded that I walk a new path of love and forgiveness. At any time, I may make a fresh start, choose a new path and forgive myself and others for past mistakes. Forgiveness is the key to freedom. I dismiss any thoughts of disapproval and affirm my power to forgive. Whatever choices I made in the past have helped forge my character. My path, no matter how crooked, was the right path for me. I am confident that even greater good is being made manifest now. I leave behind old habits and embrace new thoughts and actions that lead to wholeness and freedom. The pure, uplifting joy of prayer keeps me energized. I choose health. I choose love. I choose forgiveness. I feel light, loving and free. This was my morning meditation reading for today and it is so true for me now. So for now all is good, God is in charge and all is well. Till next time let go and wear loose clothes.